I slowly become Tom Hanks in Cast Away

Hey,

I just wanted to know if I am alone with this. I stream on Twitch for 12 years or so. My first channel was a collab and we had viewers and Merchandising and all that stuff. I gave the channel away, because it became something I did not want and started a new channel. I stream on that channel for 8 years now. Every evening for 4 to 6 hours. I mostly have 1 viewers who does not talk and my only subs are Bots who want my discord.

So normally, when somebody watches my stream and talks to me, I appreciate that very much. But I think I got so used to streaming for nobody, that now, I get shy or don't want that Person in my stream, because I feel watched. I could stop streaming, but I got so used to switch it on, it feels wrong to not stream into the void. Am I alone with this?